Thursday, October 4, 2012

Day 4: a new song

How does a girl who once fell for a lie end up believing the truth?

In high school I met a man, and intern at my youth group, who wooed me with his auburn hair and chocolate eyes, melty voice and gold guitar.

When the guitar-playing, chocolate-eyed intern returned my interest, I was astounded.  No one had ever singled me out to love before, and now here was this up-front, playing worship music on Sundays guy writing me love notes.

I fell hard.

Not just onto the ground, but into a deep, dark pit of ugliness, lies, smoke and mirrors, and sin. 

We dated for two years during which I was active in my church youth group and in our traveling church choir.  I was also dating a violent, manipulative, lying, drug addict.

A young girl who longs to be loved can know the Truth and still believe lies.

At the end of two long years, by the sweet grace of God, everything hidden became visible and the Light shone into the darkness of what I was experiencing.

Sometimes I think it was Jesus there on the other end of the phone, but really it was Pastor Paul.  He listened to my story. He reminded me of the Truth.  He helped me see the Way out.

I was taken out of the miry pit, my feet were set on a Rock, and I was rescued, set free.  Have you heard the song ‘40’ by U2?  It is based on Psalm 40.  It always makes me cry because it tells exactly what God did for me. 

I waited patiently for the Lord
He inclined and heard my cry.
He brought me right out of the pit,
Out of my miry clay.
I will sing a new song...

What new song has God helped you to sing?  I would love to hear your story, to rejoice with you! 

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  1. "A young girl who longs to be loved can know the Truth and still believe lies." So true, and so important for us to remember when we see others making poor choices. Thanks for presenting the contradictions of your situation so clearly and grace-fully.

  2. It seems like such a long time ago. You are singing a new song now, and all of that is such a distant memory. I'm so glad your life ended up not being continually defined by that period. God had other plans for you.

  3. so glad to see that you are writing AMy. You have a voice and a story that needs to be shared. It brings life. Love you lots my friend, and I love the truth that shines thru you.

  4. um, a blog? how did i NOT hear about this? expect a lot of comments as i get "caught up".

    i also love "40", b and i have tried to figure out if it was a song to the Lord. Duh. thanks for answering that question...

    this "new" idea was talked about today in the BS i attend, specifically the "new thing" as God promises in isaiah 43:19. isn't God just so amazing? not only do we get the "new thing" or "new song" through redemption in Christ, because that in itself is pure awesomeness. but we get a "new song" every day. we just have to choose to "sing it".

    i too spent 4 LOOOOONG years with a similar type. can you believe i am still fighting some of the damage done? uhk.

    excited to keep reading ...

  5. I loved your story. It's so honest and sincere, and you don't hide back. Thanks for sharing Amy!